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2月29日 Another Friday home sick...Can I just say I hate having asthma? I take meds regularly (pulmicort & serevent -- dont tell me about advair - I ended up in the hospital after that stuff) PLUS I do neb treatements when I need them. Well, last night, I needed 'em. I take a combo of Ipratropium Bromide and Albuterol Sulfate -- greatest combo in the world, but I am sick after each treatment. However, I can BREATHE! Never underestimate the gift of breathing! It is worth being sick for, believe me!
Ok, it's Friday, Gail hasnt posted her Friday Feast yet, but I thought I would jump off her most recent posting (without a parachute):
Your six-year old niece wants you to have a tea party with her. Are you too old to join her? , Ok, I love my kids, but I dont do well with little kids. My own were different, but I was not meant to be a tea party type person. I would divert my niece into something else, believe me.
Favorite movie of all time and why? Hmmm...at one time in my life I would say "Oliver" but as an adult I think the greatest movie I have seen is "Amadeus" (it's actually my wallpaper right now) -- I was fascinated with the storyline...did actual research on Mozart and Constanze...I just find it intriguing! Plus, you can't beat Mozart's fire in his music.
Your daughter and her husband are having a baby and they want to name it after their favorite baseball player: Ok, here is where I would stomp my foot and call them freaks. Yup. Then I would suggest names I never was able to use myself. But I would absolutely positively NOT cooperate with the baseball thing. I LOVE baby names, probably half the reason I did so much creative writing was to bring cool names to LIFE! My most significant naming experiences were COLIN GEOFFREY, ROSEMARY LAUREL, and CUYLER DUNCAN. Other names I love: Holly Christine, Lily Elizabeth, Merry-Lee Elizabeth, also i love the name Briony! and I love the name TRUAN for a boy.
Oh, and as a side note, I love the name Gail gave to The Girl. It is WONDERFUL. 2月16日 Another friday feastThis Friday Feast is a challenge...but I will do my very best...
Appetizer
Name one thing that is unique about you. I guess I would have to say ME...like G, my soul. God made me unique and He knew what He was doing! (any doubts, check out psalm 139) My laughter keeps me unique...at work I giggle so much it even once made a co-worker frustrated ("We are miserable and you are giggling! SHUT UP!" -- later on she said, "I love you" --- I never took offense) I am always happy and giggling at work!
Fill in the blank: My favorite ______ is _______ but I like ________, too Well oh my, I could say my favorite show on TV is LOST but I like Biggest Loser, too....or I could say my favorite theatrical production is Les Miserables, but I like Chicago, too. My favorite ice cream is Butter Crunch, but I like Peppermint Stick, too. My favorite movie is Amadeus, but I like Oliver too...my favorite A&E production is Pride & Prejudice, but I like their version of Emma too.
What colors do you like to decorate with? This is EASY...cranberrys, deep greens, blues, browns, and black!
What level of responsibility do you have in your job? This is kind of weird for me. First of all, I created my job. But there isn't headcount to make me a manager, so I am an acting manager doing what I do in New England. And I love every minute of it. I am responsible for all high speed internet that goes terribly terribly wrong! And to somehow use "my magic" as they call it, to make it right again and to make the customer love us.
What's up for the weekend? My two younger kids have chosen a secret recipe to learn how to make tomorrow night...they then will replicate it for their dad, step-mom, and grampa Tuesday night! Church tomorrow morning! I have Monday, Wed, Thurs, & Fri off as well -- and I have my younger son until the 24th so this week is going to be wonderful! Wishing all who visit here a delightful weekend, prayerfully you will soak in TheWord Sunday AM, and have treasured time with friends and family.
Stay blessed!
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2月9日 epiphanyAppetizer: Why do you enjoy the Friday's Feast so much? I am new to the Friday feast...I am just a born surveryor I guess!
Soup: Birch beer or root beer? Root beer...better yet, A&W at an A&W stand which I doubt even exists anymore. I do enjoy birch beer, but we have almost no soda in my house to begin with, I get root beer on the weekends I have my Cuy.
Salad: You are just sitting down to dinner and friends stop by. What do you do? I will add to what I have or be creative. No one goes away hungry in my house!
Main Course? Caribbean or Alaskan cruise? Alaskan, oh so to see the snow covered peaks, to just enjoy the weather! WOW!!!!
Dessert: Milk or dark chocolate? Yuck I dont' like chocolate, well, I sorta do, but dont even remotely crave it...can we do cheese cake, plain, instead please?
Ok, so there ya go. What is my blog on today? SELF FORGIVENESS. This is elusive to us all, I believe, yet something attainable. I have a tendency to blame myself for all the wrong in my life, whether I caused it or not, I must have been able to do SOMETHING. And I didn't. Therefore, I caused the wrong. I didn't recognize it, I didn't see it in time...so much.
I dream very vividly every night. Therefore, when I learned of biblical heroes who received visions at night, in their dreams, I went, yeah, yeah, whatever, I have vivid dreams too, every night!!!! Well, one night, I met a cowboy...he told me, "Well, it seems to me that it's time to move on." First of all, I am never where there are cowboys (new england, give me a break) and secondly, no one in my dreams EVER gives me advice. I remember looking at the wall and laughing, "Yeah, it's so easy for YOU to say!" and he responded, "You first need to forgive yourself." I struggled with that for the rest of the dream, even though it took me other places, to the point where I woke up and said to God, "You want me to forgive myself??? I DONT KNOW HOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" and I was advised to let go of the pain. The pain. That pain defined me. It was WHO I WAS. I was to give up the very person I had become? What would I be? An empty shell? Nothing? I could see myself holding onto the pain as if it were a package of rags I was carrying in a sack. Take THIS AWAY? So I wrestled with it...I argued with God (imagine Him saying, go for it, wrestle as much as you want, I'm still gonna win). I finally said, "Ok, it's yours, take it." But I was still afraid.
I was driving along a couple hours later, and heard Casting Crowns "East to West" -- about how it seems we are one mistake from messing it all up, but that's not true. It occurred to me that I WASNT one mistake away, that I WAS forgiven, and who am I not to forgive myself if our LORD, our Jehova, forgave me??? I busted out in tears, and then realized I still hadn't handed over the pain, and at that point I was willing to say, "God, this may hurt me very much, and I don't know who I will be when you are done with me, but reach down with Your Hand, deep inside, and pull out all the pain, just TAKE IT!!!" And He did. It didn't hurt. And, even better, he replaced the pain with joy.
Talked to my Pastor about it, he said I had an "epiphany" -- well, not sure about that, just know the pain is gone, the joy is in place, and HOPE is finally in my heart. HOPE was elusive. It existed in my head but not in my heart. It now is there, too. And Satan has already started to attack me, and I have FOUGHT BACK with awesome results. FEAR is not from God. My pastor leaned over his desk in anger at me when I told him I was afraid. Now I understand. Fear is NOT FROM GOD. Halelujah!
I am not one mistake from messing it all up. I can fight fear because God is stronger. I don't have to lose the joy HE has given me as a replacement for pain.\
PRAISE GOD I AM HIS. |
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